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Porn Stars Who Have Quit To Become Christian Preachers

At a fundraising event in California, Crissy Outlaw stands at a pulpit wearing a glamorous billowing black mini with a pink flower carefully lodged in her dark hair.

The all-American 41-year-old beauty begins her sermon simply with: ‘Hi, my name is Crissy and I used to be a porn star.’

She opens with this same line to the other congregations she visits, narrating the chilling times she was abused time and time again from the age of four, the failed relationships that left her ‘wanting to be dead’ and how she gave up her career as one of the biggest names in the porn industry to become a prolific Christian preacher.

‘I can’t believe I ever went into the porn industry,’ Crissy told DailyMail.com.

‘And I never wanted to be a preacher but it happened because I felt called to let people know why I left the industry.’ 

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Crissy grew up in Jacksonville, Florida in a lower-class, conservative and chaotic home. Her parents were divorced and she primarily lived with her father, who was adamant about sexual purity and often launched into diatribes about her maintaining her virginity until she got married.

While Crissy – whose mother couldn’t be as close as she wished during her childhood after a messy divorce with her father – believed in God, she says she was ‘confused’ by this advice on staying away from sex because for most of her childhood she was sexually abused by a predatory neighbor who touched her inappropriately – a secret she kept from her father.

‘I couldn’t understand why I was being molested so many times; it was confusing to me,’ she said. ‘Why is it so easy for people to touch my body?

‘I couldn’t make sense of it as a child. I thought it must be something about me that’s making it happen.

‘I didn’t tell my father because I couldn’t have a relationship with him, since he’s hard to get along with.’

She moved in with her mother when she was 13 years old but rebelled against the rules her father had set. A defiant Crissy lost her virginity at 17 and that same year, she became pregnant. Steadfast in the belief she would marry the man she thought was the love of her life, she decided to keep the baby. Just weeks after her decision, though, her boyfriend dumped her and she felt forced to have an abortion in her first trimester.

‘I was fully awake and aware of everything going on during the abortion and my heart was shattered while the life was literally being sucked out of me,’ Crissy recalls.

‘It was awful….my school knew about my abortion and I lost all my friends.

‘That was one of the most traumatic things that happened.’

The abortion led Crissy into a deep depression and for most of her life she looked to relationships to help her out of her mental illness and to fill a void she says her father had left.

‘I felt like I needed to be in a relationship or to be a mother to be worthy of love,’ she said.

‘I look to men to make me feel like I was beautiful, to make me feel protected and to give a sense of stability in my life, things my dad never did.’

Although she heralded romantic relationships as the ideal, Crissy suffered humiliating and degrading treatment at the hands of the men she dated because they often wanted to incorporate pornography in their sex lives.

Among the horror stories was a relationship she had with a pornography addict who raped her multiple times. She says she had to have many abortions because there were times when he would rape her while she was not on birth control.

These failed relationships as well as the memories of her abuse drove her down a path of low self-esteem and she decided to have breast augmentation surgery, believing she could finally measure up to the women her ex-boyfriends watched on screen.

‘I never felt good enough for the men I dated,’ she said. ‘I didn’t feel beautiful because they looked at porn during sex with me. I thought, am I not good enough for you that you can’t only look at me?

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